Thursday, May 31, 2012

Briley's Birth story

Tomorrow Briley will be four months old. I wanted to write this while I remember all the small and important details. This story is for her to read someday.

For most of January I was in and out of the hospital with high BP. Dr. Boerner wanted to deliver her as soon as possible, but a group called The Maternal Fetal Group wouldn't allow it until I was at least 37 weeks. I was miserable and on bed rest and waiting.

I took the boys with me to my last doctor visit before I got induced. The funniest thing happened. The room had a baby doll holding a cigarette. It was saying that what you do while you re pregnant is what the baby does. Trace didn't understand. So he ask the doctor why he had something like that in his office. To know Dr.B. He's straight to the point. He's a no nonsense kind of doctor. Dr. B looked at him and instead of saying something like"smoking is bad for the baby'" He says matter of fact" You smoke and get cancer,and die." Wow. The look on all of our faces were priceless.

Fast forward to Wed Feb 1. The boys were with Nanny and Pa. Troy and I arrived at the hospital at 5ish. we were supposed to be there at 5am on the dot, but Troy had to stop and get himself breakfast.mmph. We got checked in and made the long walk to our room. I was so nervous, excited, and ready to it to be all over with. Dr. B came in at 6 am to break my water with no luck and it hurt like crazy.I don't remember it hurting so bad with the boys.Little did I know that was going to be a breeze compared to what I was in for that day. The dr came in after an hour and I begged for his mercy,it finally broke. The nurse had given my potocin to get the show on the road.

About 8am our boys came with Nanny and Pa and we waited. I started hurting by this point. At 10am  I was given my epidural that absolutely did NOT take at all! The only thing it did was bottom my BP out and I thought I was going to die. I got poked for no reason. It hurt. I kept telling the nurse it hurt. She couldn't figure out why. Believe me I kept pressing that epidural button. I wasn't getting any relief. She sat me up, turned me from side to side hoping it would help-nothing. Nothing I did helped and I was hurting.  by 11am I was dilated to a 3 and holding. I had a room full of family and wasn't interacting with any of them. Thankfully they didn't mind.

I kept pleading with the nurse to do something. Having my boys didn't feel anything like this. She wouldn't keep checking me because she was afraid I would get an infection. So about 2:45 something happened. Something was wrong and I knew it. I grabbed onto Troy's shirt-thought I was going to pull it off of him- and begged for him to make the pain stop -now I know he couldn' t have done anything for me, but still I tried. At this point I was sobbing. Troy got everyone out and got the nurse. She checked me and I was ready to deliver this baby!!!

Now during my pregnancy I had a plan about who was going to be in the delivery room when I had her, who was to see her first.. well that plan went right on out of the window. At that moment, all I heard were curtains be closed,drawers slamming, and people running around the room. Troy, my mother-in-law, and my granny were watching Briley be born. I remember nurse Lisa telling me not to push I had to wait 18 minutes... 18 minutes really? Dr.B was on his way and that's exact time it takes him to get there from his office.  18 minutes later I was pushing. Briley was kind of high because I was only 37 weeks. So it took a little longer for her to drop down. They had to turn her..which was not nice. After about 15 minutes of pushing at 3:36 pm, Dr. B held up and cute little baby girl and said "Here's what was causing you all that trouble." Oh yes she did, and she was TOTALLY worth it.

I didn't cry. I was still in shock I think. Then I looked up at Troy and grabbed his hand and said "its finally over." I know that was awful of me, but hey it happens.

When Nurse Lisa laid Briley Jane on me, all the pain I felt melted away. I forgot about it. I had this beautiful baby girl in my arms.

I do have to say something about the nurses there at MTMC. They are wonderful. The nurse that helped deliver Briley also helped deliver Trace, so she was extra special.

If I had to do it all over again, I would. My kids are the most precious little humans and I would endure the pain all over just so they could be in my life. God made women strong for a reason.

This was taken as soon as she was born. Already looking at the camera.
Proud Big Brothers.They were the first to lay eyes on her.

Monday, May 14, 2012

A True Man

I don't usually like to get all sappy, but i feel like Troy needs to be bragged on... just a little bit.

Since January our family has had some trying times. I was put on bed rest while I was pregnant on Jan 5th. On Jan 11 th  my BP spiked and I was admitted to the hospital for eight days straight. Each day we didn't know whether the doctor was going to take Briley or not. It was a stressful and trying time for our little family. The boys were taken out of their normal routine and thrown a curve ball. Staying nights with the grandparents and visiting mommy in the hospital. My in-laws stepped up and helped out every way they could. But the most stress was laid on Troy. He had to juggle  me, the house, work, and the boys. And it did it well. Better than I could have ever done it. He did everything for me and never once complained... to me anyways.

The whole time I was in labor with Briley he never left my side.. never. After we got home he continued to Mr. Mom.  I had my tubes tied and there again he was with me the whole time. After getting all that done. i went through a funk. I cried a lot and just felt empty inside. He talked me through my bad days and always listened to me when I cried to him. I think it was just the finalization of not be able to ever have babies again. Although 3 is enough.
Now again, last Friday i had surgery. It wasn't a major surgery but it was enough to keep me down for a while. I have a cut across my stomach and it hurts like .. well it really hurts. Troy was still there and hasn't left me.

I know people expect that husbands are just supposed to do that, but not all do and I know a few that don't.
My Troy is special. He's a special man. He's an active father, wonderful husband, and all around just a great guy. I know most think they have the perfect relationship and that's great, but me and Troy aren't perfect, but we have a solid and strong relationship and to me, that is so much better than perfect. We can have long conversations and we laugh together... a lot. He makes me laugh almost everyday. He's not a husband that comes in from work and just sits. He helps take care of our kids and our house.

I thank God that he sent Troy my way. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's my rock. He's my hero. And whether he knows it or not he saved me from myself. If it wasn't for him I don't know where I'd be.

Troy- you are my life and I'll always love you

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Today is my first Mother's Day with Briley. She's made this day so special just because she's here with all of us. Our little family wouldn't be complete without her. '
  This day can be emotional for some. Some people are having a hard time because their mothers have passed on or are no longer in their lives. We all have a story of some sort.

Today seems extra special because there are women in my life that has stepped in and has taken the place of my mother.

I had surgery Friday. I can't lift anything , and that includes my baby girl. My mother in law has stayed with us the whole weekend and helped me out with her and the boys. I am grateful for her, she has always been there. She doesn't get told enough by anyone how much she is appreciated. She does so much for so many and ask for nothing in return. She has taught me how to be a better mother and I'll always be thankful for that.

Mother's Day shouldn't be about gifts, flowers, cards, etc. It should be about taking the time to stop and say thank you for your mother, grandmother, aunt, sister or whoever else impacts your life. It's a special day to let them know how much they are loved and appreciated.

I thank my God that He gave me three little people that call me mommy. I have Mother's Day everyday when i look at my three beautiful children.

So to the special women in my life thank you so much for being there, giving me advice, being my "mom", and being  the best friend a girl could ever ask for. Yes, we've had falling out, but you loved me enough to stay in my life through my crazy pregnancy phase. Thank you for sticking by me. That means more than you'll ever know. You know who you are.

Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers out there. I hope you take time to realize what a blessing it is to have someone call you Mommy.


Monday, May 7, 2012

Happy Birthday Boys

Having two birthdays 3 days a part has proved to be difficult some years, especially as they get older.

But this year was a success! WE had the boys' birthday party at our house. We tried to keep it simple, but fun. So we got a big water slide , cooked hamburgers and hot dogs, and everyone had a blast. WE are so blessed to have a wonderful family and lots of wonderful friends.
They loved the water slide!
Briley and TT

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

3 months

Where does the time go? Briley Jane is three months!
She is an amazing baby girl. She sleeps through the night and wakes around 6 am. When she wakes up she always has a smile on her face. She's starting to laugh and giggle out loud. I am so in love with my kids. There aren't words to describe how I feel.

Baseball is in full swing. Trev started a new travel team and Trace will be playing travel for the first time this summer. Briley is starting to get use to the yells and cheers at the park.

I am blessed beyond words. This past three months we've had a lot going on and can't imagine what it would've been like without the help of our dear friends and family. They have been amazing. My kids are so lucky to have wonderful people in they're lives and I can't imagine our world without them. Even though I signed up to take food and deliver cupcakes and totally forgot.. what great friend am I?

Having three kids is trying sometimes. Usually, there's blood, guts, and tears.. not really, but you know what I mean.  I have one screaming, the other climbing the walls, and then there's Trevor. He's always the one trying to help with the other two. I'm getting the hang of it for sure. It took me a while to realize that I have to start getting everyone, including myself, ready like three hours before we go anywhere. I've only been caught without extra clothing and milk once. I'd say that's pretty darn good... if you know me personally. So I think we'll all make it. As crazy as our lives are , I wouldn't trade it for the whole wide world. 

And i owe a BIG thanks to my MIL. Without her I don't know what I'd do. She's a very special lady that stays by my side through anything and everything. I'm so thankful to have her in mine and my kiddos' lives.

So to sum it up. These past three months, minus the little bumps, have been SIMPLY AMAZING.